Letting Go/On The Fence

The year never seemed to slow for this one
Looking back now, we thought we’d find her
Somewhere familiar, somewhere warm
Somewhere sensible, somewhere safe
She always thought
Things never change much
To return –
What wounds await?
Please don’t forget me!
I am not gone forever,
Friends…
I said.
I thought.
I am worried –
Looking across that ocean
Eyes glazed over headlines
You’re doing all the right things
Do I stay here?
In solitude and comfort?
Carrying on work that may not help
And leave you to do the fighting on the ground?
Will you fight?
You want it – the boldface tells me so
But I want to fight, too
Survivors guilt is for war
Not for politics
Not for girls
I know what I must do
But let me cry a little longer
That is my heart over there
And I’ve not abandoned you